Background Story:
I met Moriah in 2017. She was dating one of my best friends at the time, so we hung out often. The three of us would take workout classes together. At one point, Moriah became my personal trainer. She created a workout plan that pushed me hard, and I started attending her boxing classes whenever I could. She even had me send her pictures of my meals—though I probably only sent the healthier ones. I ended up getting into the best shape of my life because of her. After she and my friend broke up, I only saw her occasionally. But whenever I did, I was always happy to see her. The last time I saw Moriah was in 2020, during the height of the pandemic. A lot of people, including me, were leaving the city. She came to my apartment and gave me a boxing lesson. I bought us sushi for lunch in return. It was one of the only times I remember hanging out with her without my best friend there. I wish I remembered what we talked about during that lunch. I wish it had been something more memorable. We lost touch after I moved. I often thought about texting her when I was doing intense workouts — the kind she loved. But for one reason or another, I never did. She passed away in 2022. Now, whenever a friend crosses my mind, I try my best to reach out. I don’t want to have any regrets.
What I wish I could say to Moriah:
Dear Moriah,
You were always in my mind whenever I was trying to get back into shape or trying to be healthier. When I almost threw up at my first CrossFit class or when I signed up for a Title Boxing Gym membership, I remember thinking that you would be happy I was continuing the fitness journey I started with you. I miss your laugh. Remember that laughing fit we had with your ex over those silly pictures of me at Outside Lands? You were always such a joy to be around. I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you. I’m sorry I didn’t check in on you. I’m sorry you were in pain. I am grateful for the brief time that you were in my life. Your passing has inspired me to work on my pain. Thank you for your love and your light. Love and miss you.
Joe