Background Story:
I first met Moriah when she was dating my best friend. We quickly became workout buddies. She got me into the best shape of my life. We lost touch when I moved away from San Francisco. There were times when I thought of her, like when I joined a boxing gym or when I tried CrossFit for the first time. But I didn’t text her. Since her passing, I try to be better at texting people when I think of them.
What I wish I could say to Moriah:
Dear Moriah,
You were always in my mind whenever I was trying to get back into shape or trying to be healthier. When I tried CrossFit and signed up for a Title Boxing Gym membership, I thought of you. I wanted to tell you how I almost threw up at my first CrossFit class. You were more than a workout buddy and someone who was dating my best friend. I remember the last time I saw you. It was at the height of the pandemic and right before I moved to Texas. You came over and did some boxing drills with me. Then we had sushi. How much harder I would’ve hugged had I known it would be our last time seeing each other. I miss your laugh. Remember that laughing fit we had with Dom over those silly pictures of me at Outside Lands? You were always such a joy to be around. I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you. I’m sorry I didn’t check in on you. I’m sorry you were in pain. I am grateful that you were in my life, if ever so briefly. Your passing has inspired me to work on my pain - pain that almost led to my passing from suicide. Thank you for your love and for your light and love you forever.
Joe